(In this picture A Giant and my husband Steve)
For me it has been my weight since we moved to Indiana when I was 10 years old I have used food to comfort me in almost every situation. Now that I am a grown up and can see the physical damage it has done to my body I have begun the uphill battle to lose this other person I have been carrying around for over half my life… it is so hard but I am going to win this battle. 3 years ago I woke up one morning and went to our local park and just started walking my goal at that time was to do a mile a day at least 3 times a week so I would break that mile into 2-3 visits to the park in one day after I could do a mile in one day at one time I started increasing it to 2 miles and eventually got to 5 miles once a day 2-3 times a week but last summer I struggled with blood pressure issues and lost all the momentum from my start so now I am starting from the beginning and have added workout time with a personal trainer to help tone. This by far may be my biggest Giant yet as it will be one I will face every single day for the rest of my life.
What brought me to the point of carrying a whole other person around with me is what happened to me in college, I was date raped but I couldn’t even admit that back then. I thought I had done something wrong and that if I admitted what happened it was because I caused it to happen. My thinking was if I am fat nobody will want me and I can just live in my own little world and not let anyone in.
That would have worked until I met a guy who saw me from the inside out. Darn, the luck !! LoL 20 years later and he still sticks around. Not really sure why some days but he loves me and has seen me through some of the darker days. Food for me has always been a comfort, it was for my Mom too she is where I learned the habit of using food to comfort. She is now in the fight for her life literary at age 70 and that has become my reason for losing this extra person I want to live to see our daughter get married and have kids! so I need to do this no matter how hard that Giant fights me .. I know With God all things are possible! Matthew 19:26 Even this!! So stand back everyone and watch my Giant tumble to the ground!
Repost from a former blog – May 2011
Saved To Serve, Serve To Inspire,